week 3 (12/31/08)
February 8, 2009I’m starting to think that the reason this IUD has such a high success rate is because the bleeding never, ever stops which renders sex impossible. Every time I think it’s done it starts back up again.
I had three or four days of just being cranky and distant and slightly depressed. I also had two near anxiety attacks. I mean, I think they were anxiety attacks. I’ve never had them before, so I’m only guessing. But I couldn’t focus, it was hard to breathe, my daughter asked me the same things over and over and I couldn’t pull myself together long enough for her words to register. I kept us out of the house or just on the road for several days last week because I couldn’t handle being inside. For a few days I actually feared that my marriage was over…for no reason. As soon as I said out loud what was going on in my head I realized how crazy it sounded and figured that it was hormonal. I’ve just never had hormonal issues like this. They’re kind of overwhelming.
I’m feeling much better now. Being around family for a week was perfect. My husband went back to work yesterday and I was okay the whole day. I’m still a little quieter than usual and feel distant.
I will not obsess…
This made me cry. I kept thinking I was crazy and looking at pictures in the house of myself to remind myself that I’m still in there somewhere. I’ve never had a reaction or an allergy so putting this thing in was a no brainer oh so wrong! The only thing that has kept me sane is my kids and the fact I keep reminding myself that I’m ok and this will be over. Hopefully soon. It’s out now.